Greetings from theHospital

Last Thursday I felt very weak, when I first got up. I called son and we went to urgent care. That was a waste of time. We wound up at the ER in the hospital that I really despise. They ran tests and were ready to release me when I compained of chest pains. That was one of the original complains. They read another blood test and said I had a blood clot in the lung. So they admitted me and I have had first one thing or another and I am still here. They have started me on blood thiners and that lowers my blood presure and because I have low blood presure anyway. Well you can guess it makes my blood presure down to the high eightys. I can't even walk around when it is that low. I am trying to keep it up today so I can go home tomorrtow.

Will keep you posted.

I don't have my speller with me.

Struggling

I am having so much trouble with this lesson for Sunday. The 12th chapter of Hebrews.
I can't seem to separate the word discipline with punishment. Believe it or not my friend that knows the lest about the Bible has the best answer. She say discipline is guidance and punishment can be corporal punishments.

I had a little fender bender this week. The way the policeman wrote up the report I won't be able to collect from her insurance. Policeman says cause was in attention on both our parts. My car has a good size dent and her big suv has a scratch on the bumper.
I dropped the collision on my car some time ago and the dent is probably below the deductible anyway.

I used the last of hubbies life insurance to pay off the credit cards the interest was eating me up. The plan is to take what I was paying on the credit cards and put in the savings account. But, thing like this stupid accident keeps coming up.

I was turning right on a green light she was turning left on a green light and she hit me. She pushed me down the street and then continued chasing me trying to hit me again. It took a half a block before I could stop. She said I hit her and when I replied she hit me she started screaming liar, liar, liar, I tried to call son and he couldn't hear me for her screaming. When I was doing claims the person turning left was always in the wrong, but the way the policeman wrote it up she will probably get away with it.

I went to meditation class that night and it helped to calm me down. I felt worse the next day so I went to Urgent Care and my blood pressure was higher than it has ever been before. I think I am calmed down now but it still upsets me to think about it.

Pleasant Surprise

My oldest grandson moving from coast to coast per request of Uncle Sam stopped by to see me.

I was so surprise to get a phone call from my oldest grandson. The family here was excited to see him also. I don't think he expected so many relatives to descend on him at once.

I took him to my favorite New Mexican restaurant. He enjoyed the food very much or else he was very hungry. I took him for a tour of the volcanoes and the petroglyh park. When we arrived back home my grandson here and family visited for awhile. He got to play with the little great grand daughter. We spent a lot of time visiting and catching up. I don't remember the last time we had such a good visit.

I loved hearing about his time in Hebrew school and the birth of his little one. He carries on the family name and the traditional first name to go with the family name. His little on has the middle name of Joseph so they call him Jose. He has a little bit of the Hispanic feature and with Jose. It is so funny to me that he carries on the family name. My hubby would have loved it. I would so like to see the little guy.

I have been invited to visit when they have moved and are settled, but I am hesitate to commit to traveling any more.

Doctors now think my on going tummy problems is my arthritis medication that I have been taking for 4 years. In talking to my counselor this week it made since that I have had this problem for 4 years and I have been taking this medication that long. Why has it taken so long to figure that out. I am as slow as my doc's at realizing this. The week long bout of staying on the pot is so draining.

I managed to help at church yesterday for the big picnic. I had a good time visiting. My Sunday School Class has ask me to teach the next one or two lessons in the book on Hebrews. Our regular teacher which is great is going to to be out of town. I am honoured that they think I can do it, I just hope I can live up to their expectations.

June 1950

I have been told I live too much in the past. Maybe I do but I remember the day the Korean War started.

Beulah, Colorado a little village, Pueblo residence had summer homes located there. I shouldn't call them summer homes more like cabins or dormitories.

My boy friend's mother had one of the larger cabins that you could call a dormitory. Upstairs there was a kitchen with benches all around the room, cushions on them for the girls. Down stairs was the boys quarters with make shift beds, wall to wall.

That June Sunday, there were 2 couples of us with his mama as chaperon. I had just graduated from high school. We were learning to play Canasta, it was the latest card game out. Mama was fixing sandwiches for us. Music was playing on the radio until the announcement of the beginning of the Korean war. I didn't know how that would change my life.

Later after I was married to a Marine and had two little boys my father had a cabin. I do mean a cabin, a room with a kitchen and couch and a bedroom with a bed and dresser. The dresser was an antique with a marble top (too bad it was sold with the cabin.) My boys spent many a summer day playing in the stream that ran beside the cabin and running up and down the mountains around the place. We took them horseback ridding, once a summer. We had to rent the horses and that was all we could afford.

My fathers cousin who we called Uncle Frank lived in a small travel trailer on a lot in the main part of town. He took the boys and I places while hubby was overseas, He had the boys looking for gold in the rocks around the little village. They found lots of fools gold.

Hubby and I went back one of the last times we were in Pueblo and the place had grown up. My fathers cabin was still there but locked up. The outhouse was now considered too close to the stream for anybody to live there.

Lots of memories tied up to Beulah and the date of Korean War brings back lots of it.

Devastated

Just read my e-mail from son-in-law. My sweetpea grand daughter won't get to come this year. She has summer school and David is getting married. He has a lot on his plate he is trying to work and go to school. Sweetpea has been a handful this year.
She has had so much happen in her life. 2007 hubby her playmate for all of her life died. Eight months later I moved back to New Mexico for reasons I have stated before. I had been a steady presence all of her life. Her momma died in 2008. She moved from the house and school she had known most of her life, last summer. I am not surprised she is having trouble in school. She has had so many disruptions in her life

I understand the financial problems and the time restraints. I feel like I don't have that many more summers. My oldest great gran isn't getting to come this summer and now my sweetpea. I am just devastated.

Brag on my Kids

First son is always in the news,radio and now TV (when they show it). I am kinda use to his exposure it just keeps growing. Last Monday night I went to Writer to Writers with second son. His speaker canceled at the last minute and he had to fill in. He couldn't have done better if he had been planning and working on it for weeks. It is good to see other people appreciate him as well. First son gets lots of appreciation and he deserves it, but I don't see second sons appreciation it is not that visible.

I have trouble talking to Penni's friends because they always want to tell me how much they loved and appreciated her. Today I had a conversation with a lady that doesn't know me that well and never met Penni. I was trying to tell, her why I don't like to look like my mother. So, I told her without thinking that because I didn't have a great mother God made up for it with my having a great daughter.

I never understood why my mother couldn't love more than one person in a family. In our family it was my sister. In my family it was second son. With grand kids I guess it was first grandson here, others were away and she didn't see them that much.
She missed so much in getting to know the rest of us that, she couldn't be bothered with and we missed having a mother and grandmother.

With my kids they are all special and have a special place in my heart. They have raised good families. I have tried so hard to see each one as a individual and I appreciate each of them.

June 9, 1932

My birthday, some standout in my mind but most of them were just another day.

My 9th birthday my mother was busy getting a formal for my sister for her first formal dance. My birthday was completely forgotten. My grandmother reminded her of the day and she said. " well, I was going to get her some war stamps but I forgot."

My 18th birthday my boyfriend took me to dinner in a Colorado Springs restaurant which had been a old church. I had a special dress orange with white flowers down the side one of my special memories.

My 21st birthday I was pregnant with my second son. We were living in military housing, outside our house was a gardenia bush. Hubby brought me a flower off the bush.

My 75th birthday Penni gave me a garden party for my birthday.

This birthday was quiet and happy I had dinner with second son. First son called and we had a nice chat. I answered phones at the church all afternoon. I walked Missy when I got home before I went to bed.

Confusion

Shari, tells me every time we talk about something I make a reference to Penni. I wasn't aware that I thought about her that much, but I guess I do. I have been trying not to do that but. This morning was I pulling weeds or goat heads in the front yard. Some of them had buds of little yellow flowers so it brought to mind.

When Penni first moved in the house they brought she was thinking about landscaping a very large back yard. The far top of the back yard was terraced and it was full of the prettiest little yellow flowers. Penni was so pleased that she didn't have to do something to that area. Until her father pointed out to her that the little yellow flowers were goat heads.

When I left a shop later in the day the radio, in the car, was playing you guessed it "Harper Valley PTA. Penni drove the boys crazy playing that song.

How do I not think of Penni when almost every thing I do is a reminder?

I took Missy and Shari's two dogs to the groomers today. It wasn't far over there but they sat up in the back seat just like I was there chauffeur. I wish I had a picture of that.

Mother's Day 2010

I wasn't looking forward to Mother's Day this year. Hubby and Penni took care of that for me. When ever the commercial's on TV were talking about Mother's Day. I kept seeing a little piece of wrapping paper that Penni had used as a greeting card. She said something like thank you Mom and Dad I love you. Mom thank you for everything you do for me. Penni always signed her cards that way for me. Several days later I was half asleep about 3:00 AM I had been reading and was going back to sleep. I saw a ceramic piece in my mind. Hubby when he was working security at U of A had made me this mermaid on the side of a big shell. When he brought it to me the shell had water in it and daises floating in it. I remember how happy I was and how much I loved him. I felt like both hubby and Penni were wishing me a Happy Mother's Day.

P has already blogged about our day, I really loved going to Bosque Farms for Church and spending the day with his family. Oldest son called and we had a long chat I really enjoy talking to him and he has so little time to talk that I appreciate a long chat with him.

All and together this years Mother's Day was a good one.

Abby's First Birthday

Abigail is my only grand gran that's a girl. I love to see her every few days or weeks. She is walking now and is little and just runs around everywhere. We had her birthday at my house. (Grandma and Grandpa were sick so we move the party here.)

I love her little chubby cheeks and fat arms and legs. I can't see anything of myself in her or any of the family traits. She looks like her Mom which is great but I can't see my side of the family in her. Her mom was complaining about a little curl behind her ear that sticks straight out and won't be tamed. I was just as pleased as punch. That is the bane of my life I can't control that stubborn curl behind my ear. Penni had it and Michelle has it, now Abigail has it. I would love to know how far that goes back. I do not know where or which side of the family, I received it from. No one in my family had the curl to my knowledge.

I thought you would enjoy her picture.

I only see pictures of the other two boys that are great grans and were born last year.

James had his first birthday last month also. James carries my hubby's first and middle name's. His pictures look like he is full of fun and will be a handful to take care of, his momma may pay for some of her raising.

Jose carries on the family name and I know my hubby would be proud as punch of that and so am I. I have only seen picture of him and he isn't very old yet but I can't see any family resemblances there, but we couldn't see any in his daddy either. Jose's grandpa looks very much like my hubby.

Richie my 7 year old great gran looks like his dad and his grand dad. There is no mistaking the family resemblances.

It is funny to think of how many people owe there lives to hubby and I. We only had 3 kids and there are 6 grand kids, now we have 4 great grans. Sorry hubby didn't live to see this.

Great Gran

Great

May 5,2010

My handyman friend was over today and did some things for me. He is trying to move to Tenessee so I don't get him very often. I fixed lunch and we had a good time. When he was leaving he told me that he was taking another lady in the neighborhood on a cruise. Needless to say I was disappointed. Everyone seems to be going some place but me. Oldest son going to his sons graduation in California. B and G when to San Diego. B called me and ask me to remember some of the places that we had gone together. A is going to another friends daughters graduation in NC. I probably shouldn't travel until I get stronger but I do feel left out.

I have spend another couple of days in the hospital since I last blogged. I guess the antibiotics got to me and with the runs for 12 hours I was very dehydrated. I have been weak since I got home but I am getting stronger each day. I finally finished all my test for my new heart doctor and I see him Monday.

I am anxious for Michelle and Richie to come for visits this summer. The weather has turned hot and I need to do some gardening. We are going after dog food tonight just waiting for Shari to call.

I sent another appeal off for the ambulance bill of last September. I have had two ambulance rides since then I wonder when I will get the bill for them. It seems as if the ambulance attendant put down that I didn't need to use a ambulance so medicare if refusing to pay for it. The doctor has sent two letters stating that I did need to use the ambulance but medicare believes the ambulance attendant, I have appeal it twice lets see what this brings. The bill is $500.00 so that is why I am fighting it.

April 15, 1930

A baby boy was born today to a young couple he had been recently discharged from the Army. While in the army he boxed a little. He was having trouble providing for his new family so he boxed some as a civilian. Under the name of Soldier P------. He wanted his son named William. After all his name was William and he knew that his fathers name was William. He was orphaned at the age of 7. To keep the family's name carried on all the first born males should be William. This little family lived in Denver, Colorado. The depression and the search for finical security would take them to Arkansas and back to Colorado.

When this baby grew up he wanted so to be just like Dad so he joined the military but some of his friends were joining the Marines so the Marines it was for 6 years. He even joined the boxing squad, but that was cut short when the Sgt in charge found out he had just got married.

The baby born April 15, 1930 was my hubby. Our first born a boy was named William. Hubby now has a great gran son whose name is also William.

My hubby William now has 3 generation named William after him. So today would have been his 80th Birthday. He would have been so pleased that the name William has been carried out for him. Some people think, this is tax day but it is just hubby's birthday and for the generations of William's to remember him.

I am disappointed in one of Penni's friends she is into this teabag thing. Sorry I got in this facebook with her. I can't understand their way of thinking. My President is my President and deserves some respect. This President needs some time to prove himself. I can't believe people who profess to be Christians acting the way they are. Everyone deserves health care. If my daughter had had health care for a year before they found her cancer she would be alive today. No one can convince be differently.

I haven't been feeling too well today. My blood pressure must have been really low. I have just been vegging out on the couch.

I saw in the paper that my distant cousins wife died. He was the pastor of a local Baptist Church for a long time. He was a mainstream baptist before there was such a thing. He preached my Mothers funeral. I am going to the viewing with the family, just to let there daughter know I cared and recognize the relationship.

Son is working for a lawyer and loving it. He made the transition very smoothly. My retirement was more difficult.

I came back and rewrote some of this today. I felt so bad yesterday I didn't do the story of hubby justice.

Answer to Prayer?

God answers prayers in mysterious ways. I was fretting about no one to call and say let's have lunch today. Lets run away and do something silly. Go for a long drive,have lunch in a crazy place. Do something crazy and different.

I use to have a dear friend that was always up for just that kind of thing. She died before hubby. I couldn't think of anybody to call.

I was reading my morning e-mails and blogs. I was e-mailing with son-in-laws brother about something in the news. We had talked about lunch in a e-mail a week or so ago. He responded when would you like to go. I responded today so he decided the cell phone was better then e-mails. To make a long story short. We are going to lunch today.

Easter Season

I don't remember an Easter Season with so many new programs at church. They did the last supper re-enactment last year nor nearly as good as this year. Tonight was something called the Tenebrae Service of Lights and Darkness very effective. I had never seen that one before.

This new pastor has a lot going for him. He keeps things moving all the time. I guess that's what the church needed.

I haven't heard anything out of NC. I sent sweetpea a card for Easter, but I haven't heard anything.

I got birthday presents off today for my kids. I don't think I can manage anything for greatgrans but birthday cards.

I got my fed income tax back so I mailed off the state a check and that was half. So it left me trying to find enough money to pay for car repairs. I won't be caught that way next year I intend to have state tax removed ahead of time.

I have found John Grisham's books. I have found a bunch of them at the good will so I am reading about 3 a week. I am enjoying them but I'm not getting much done but read.

Happy Easter everybody.

Friends

Mine and hubby's friend and handyman is moving to Tennessee. He is remodeling a house there and moving a little bit at a time. He comes back every couple of months and spends a few days and back he goes with another load. He called yesterday and said he had just finished his taxes and I had just finished mine also. He ordered a pizza and I put a pumpkin pie in the oven.

We had a impromptu dinner. He stayed for over 4 hours we just had the best time just talking. We have been friends for over 15 years. It kills me to see him move. Those kind of friends don't come along very often.

Insurance Companies

Back in the late 60's I was working for a small Insurance Agency. I was really into learning to have my license for fire and casualty. I learned a lot of the history of insurance how it came about and what it was created for. I was really glad to be a part of a industry that helped people. I mean it really, really helped people.

A few years into working for small agencies. I really thought about starting my own agency. I just needed a steady income as hubby was going to school and trying to work also. I also had two in high school and looking at college, Penni was just starting school and needed me home as much as possible. It was a good thing I didn't. Many of the small insurance companies that I was use to working with were being bought up by corporations. I couldn't figure out why a corporation would buy an insurance company. Insurance companies had to keep a pool of money to pay claims. By law a portion of all premiums had to be kept for the insurance pool. Corporation saw all that money and if they owned that company they could get their hands on the money. All the small insurance companies began to disappear. That forced the combination of companies to get as large and AIG and they began to branch out into all other kinds of finance.

Now insurance companies are dictating if the American public can have health care coverage or not. How can they put profits ahead of people dying and not having any health care. I can't believe in the greed. I know by the insurance industry cutting health care loose it will put a lot of people out of work. I had try another kind of work. It took me 15 years to work my way up in public education. I couldn't work for insurance any more. All I see is the misery their greed is causing.
What happened to people who wanted to help their neighbors by pooling their money to form a insurance company.

I didn't bounce

I fell leaving Church Sunday. They had a long piece of plastic along the entry to the auditoium. This was not fastened down in anyway. I got my toe under the edge and got my foot caught under it and of course I went down. I fell on my new plastic knee. I had it x-rayed, I didn't break anything thank heavens. I guess that was the best way to fall if I had to fall. I have pulled some muscles so I am sore but I am alright.

I bought a new Quicken mine was about 8 years old. I haven't kept up with my Quicken this past year and doing my taxes was a pain in the neck. I have installed the new Quicken and it won't let me go back to the old one without wiping out the new one. I am trying to reconstruct all this years bank items. I have two checking accounts. Two savings accounts, 5 credit cards, and one mortgage. I can keep everything on Quicken except mileage. I should be able to figure out how to keep that too.

I am getting money back from Federal but I didn't pay any State so I have to pay that. Bummer it is going to take half of my Federal to pay the state. I was planning on having the car repaired with the Federal.

I am going to physical therapy so I should be back in shape in good time. I can't seem to get it all together. Things keep happening all the time to set me back.

Hippy Hopppy Home Again

Be it ever so humble there is no place like home.

Granddaughter is staying with me a few days to help out.

We tried to go out to eat after we left rehab. I did fine for about 30 minutes and then it was like I hit a brick wall. I almost didn't make it back to the car. Yesterday I just laid around and took it easy. Today we got up and started in we have laundry going. We cleaned out the refrig. Loaded the dishwasher and are just resting.

I have caught up on e-mails. Ordered a embroidery piece that will be a challenger for me.

I need to fold some clothes so that M can put them away.

I am not as strong as I thought I was I need to work on that.